an eve of uncertainty...

Oh California...not that I would move back to SF, but with the incredible levels of stress I am experiencing, I think surfers and vodka sounds really, really appealing right now. AS IF breaking up with your fiance is not stressful enough, now layoffs at my job? still, i believe we are never given more than we can handle. so, as i sit and enjoy my nightly glass(es) of wine and cheese (my favorite dinner for one...) i contemplate what my future holds...certainly i will go on to learn more, grow more and become even more fabulous. still, a sense of uncertainty creeps within. but what would life be without these moments? isn't this when we learn the most? i know i will go on, i know i will succeed, i know i will be happy. i need to look deep inside and find the sparks that truly make me happy and hold onto them as i move forward.