blessed

there are a lot of realizations I am making now that I would never have been able to see earlier…I feel better, look better and am in a better place than I was three months ago. The adjustment process has been hard, but I have been lucky enough to have the love and support of my family and friends to get me through it. My reality seems closer each day and in my heart I know I have done a courageous, life changing thing. Leaving Brad and NY was hard, but so many doors of my life have opened in return. Life is truly good.

on and on

this is a much slower process than i ever imagined. am in my new place, an adorable farmhouse which i am going to share with my roommate kate who moves in in july and who is coming over tonight for dinner. i know i have done quite a bit thus far, but...this is tough. i am realizing how much i miss companionship, how much i want to share my life with someone, yet i know i am not emotionally in a place where i could do that in a healthy way; thus, i am just trying to make friends and have fun. go to the gym, be healthy, surround myself with family and good friends and be gentle with myself. the summer soltice is around the corner and with that, a new season, a time to let my skin shine in the sun and a time to be glad with life, with self and with this beautiful journey we all are on.